Dig in deep

My affect today is so flat I feel like I could just lay down and let the time go by.
The anxiety at moments is too much the bear and as a result I think my body reaches a point where it can no longer handle the pressure of such a balancing act.
Uncertainty and mixed messages push me back to a place where I lose myself in what his next word might be. I feel at times that he forces himself to be here. Perhaps he is finally getting in touch with himself now that he recognizes his depression prevents him from being present in his life.

There's no doubt. I see it and I can feel it when the confusion and doubt over comes him. I don't know what to do. At this point there is nothing I can do except love him and support him.. Maybe he will see that just bc that exists that u don't throw all that is stable and positive away.

Why such sadness my friend? Why are your eyes glazed and flat? How can I help you out of the hole you are in? If only I could reach out to you without wanting you in my life permanently in return. My mirror is foggy from the steam of the shower, you walk in behind me and grab my waist. I speak to both of us as the mirror clears....
Welcome to the corner of my heart
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