sands in the hourglass

how is it that I am so frustrated? I wish I could keep that resesve. It's a skill you know, I have to work at it tonight. I will try to not go to that place of no return, where I push it to the limit and then pull back. If only I could have patience... whereby I didn't feel the need to push the issue at the very moment.. things take time and I get so anxious and overthink things that I have to deal with it then. Its a bad quality and it's not going to make things any better.