3/19 Arms length
I am always the one in control and I lost that control on Sat. I let my emotions get the better of me. I am humilated yet at the same time I had to stand up for myself. In reality I don't know what I said to him, it was bad.. that was turning point. There is no going back but maybe that is ok. In the end, I was honest with my feelings. I had to be and besides I don't like feeling as though I'm being disrespected.

"Where is this love? I can't see it, I can't touch it. I can't feel it. I can hear it. I can hear some words, but I can't do anything with your easy words." - closer 2004

3/15 How big is your shovel?
Funny thing about stupid people... they think your dump enough to believe the shit they shovel. I have no patience or room in my life for it. B was a trip but I knew no matter what he loved me. I knew as he sat on my couch at 9am on sunday that he loved me like he will love no other. I may at the end of my life will have loved him and no other.