3.06.2003

I felt it necessary to respond to a comment I received from my earlier post...regarding this MR.. RIGHT NOW...

Currently there is no Transitional Man, or Mr.. Right Now- but I suppose that is not something I would entirely rule out...

In regard to my earlier post this is my cynical perspective speaking or more appropriately my bad attitude. You see, IF opportunity knocked and Mr.. Right Now were to present himself, it would be just my luck that those very unappealing ten qualities he would posses, which is why I would argue the latter point that I simply may not be interested in the whole project. (problem number two, I view this as a chore of sorts).

And to further that point - ( this is where I start to philosophize....so exit if you find it repulsive-) Mr.. Right Now, or Transitional Man would have to be someone I would want to be with, so that would negate the whole Transitional thing....there is the element of something else that lurks in the darkness. If you like the person you want them to be more than transitional....right? Perhaps I have yet to master this skill.... I really have to like a person to see them on a somewhat regular basis or spend my time with them, ok that second part may sound pretentious but I know some of you out there in space will attest to this maybe in the bathroom with the door closed, --but other than acquaintances, dating someone for the sake of having someone to spend time with is just not my bag!

Sure I can stay up till three a.m. with the adults, doing adult things, and some not so adult things ( standing on a bar stool at the Raccoon Lodge singing Me and Bobby MeGee comes to mind here...) Hey, I slept with someone on the first date!! --(not necessarily proud of this very personal detail but ....in honesty, knowing full well that I would not be calling him in the near future and did not mind if he didn't call me (didn't want him to actually) made it ok somehow. (don't they talk about stuff like this on
Naked NY? You see, after five minutes of our initial meeting I knew we had this attraction between us, I didn't really find him my cup of tea, but was willing to give it a go.

While at dinner, he talked about himself and his money. boring. Halfway through dinner, he was aggravating me by attempting on more than one occasion to swallow my hand, (normally I would assume that when one kisses your hand, they do so in gentle caressing manner), on the way home from dinner he nearly suffocated me, when he offered me an invitation to accompany him inside to meet his housemates, I thought about it, sure what the hell.... I can always leave. When he invited me to view the wet bar in his bedroom, (Ok I was younger, a real risk taker, or opportunist) I figured what the heck!, I saw the opportunity to have some fun, and SO that was Mr. Of The Moment.....

As fate would have it Mr. Of the Moment did call, a few times thereafter, I told him I met someone I was serious about, so now in retrospect I suppose that was a potential Mr. Right Now.... If only I could stomach him outside of the bedroom, perhaps we would have gotten along... So I digress again,,,and ask myself Do I have the energy or patience rather for Mr. Right Now?? probably not.

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