I think about him and how he said that we were holding each other back with these images of us as teenagers. but I didn't feel that way. I knew that the past shaped who we were but it was the future that motivated me to love him even more. because it was our future that i strove for. whenever i think of myself in years to come, i pictured him by my side and when i hear him tell me that he wants to be friends my chest hurts. all that i have ever dreamt about or for in my whole life included him.
all that is nothing but a fading light that i used to hold to the highest standard only now
i can't picture myself any other way but with him by my side. which leaves me pretty empty handed and well alone